Showing posts with label Hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Hope. Show all posts

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

We Interrupt Our Regularly Scheduled Blog...


My “brand” is not Christian, or Activist, or even Ally.  Sure, I try to live these models to the best of my ability – but when it comes to my art and my “persona” I try to be as non-political as possible.  I’m an entertainer, writer, musician who identifies most closely with comedy, and based on my irreverent sense of humor, I’m pretty sure I have the soul of a perpetually 13-year-old boy.

But then there’s this…

This aching I’ve felt so acutely since the massacre at Pulse in Orlando.  This heavy, heavy weight in my soul compounded daily by the pain and suffering of people I know and people I don’t – people I’ll never have the chance to meet, because their lives were ended just because they were in the wrong place at the wrong time when another person – another human being acted out in a violent way.

I cried – really cried – yesterday when I found out about all the families who lost their lives in Bagdad.  And today I’m crying because I know that specifically my black friends – all of them – are mourning the senseless death of Alton Sterling.

And I hate this because I feel so f-ing helpless!!!  So here it is. All I can do.  I can pray.

It’s okay if you don’t believe in a “guy in the sky.”  But even scientific studies validate the positive effects of prayer, meditation, goal setting and focused thought/intention.  So if you are so inclined – if you also ache for the countless victims of violent acts perpetuated by other human beings, if you can humble yourself for just a minute to look inside at the state of your own heart – this seems as good a place to start as any. 


Dear God (or insert Deity of choice,)

Please take Alton Sterling into your loving embrace.  Please bless his friends, family and members of his community with an outpouring of love, understanding and healing.

Please pour out your grace on all our communities and the law enforcement officers that serve them across this nation.  Help those in positions of greater power meet their responsibilities with greater temperance, greater equity and increased civility. 

Help us to look at our own hearts with honesty and cast out all fear, bigotry and hatred. Please shower us all with more love for our brothers and sisters in every walk of life.  Teach us to celebrate our diversity together, and so create a greater sense of unity across all man-made divides.

I know, Father, that as no respecter of persons, you do not esteem one person, one gender, one culture, one race above another.  For we all are your creation and you love us all as one.  Teach us that same love, across cultures, across, faiths, across ethnicities.

We know that we are broken.  Please take our broken hearts, and make them whole in your love, that we may love each other more perfectly – that we stand united as one people against fear, against hate, and against oppression.

Let us start today by mourning with those that mourn – the family of Alton Sterling, the countless people maimed and killed in Bagdad, the victims at the airport in Turkey, the innocents at Pulse night club – and the thousands of victims daily across the globe whose lives are cut short in acts of violence, hate and apathy.

Help us all to bear the mantle of responsibility to make this beautiful world you gave us a home of peace, tolerance and love.  Help us remember that, here, on this little tiny spec of the vast expanse of the universe, we truly are one.

Help us to be slow to anger, quick to forgive, patient in our actions and thoughtful in our words.  Help us to help each other fulfill our greatest potentials as individuals and communities. Help us to see in each human we encounter on our great journey, the pieces of us that they share.

Please, God, I do my best to do my part every day, and yet when my friends are aching because of injustice, because of violence, because of death and destruction, I know that somehow I have not done enough.

If words are all I have, then please help me to use mine to lift others up, show others hope and light, and to inspire change in those whose hearts are most in need.

I beg for your blessing.

Amen.

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

To my Facebook Friend who is Cancer-Free Today...


I woke up with a migraine today, but this is not something to complain about – because the important part isn’t the migraine.  I woke up today.

Eight years ago on this day, waking up was much more difficult.   I had just completed my final chemo treatment after nine grueling months of punishing infusions and surgery to remove a malignant tumor named Maury from my left foot.  He took a decent sized chunk of my left foot along with him – that bastard.

And waking up on October 1st 2006 was NOT easy.  But I did it.  And I did it again the next day – and the days after that – even though I could barely get out of bed or eat – at least I woke up.

And sometimes I forget.  I forget just how remarkable my body is for healing and rebuilding and enduring all the sh*t I put it through.  I forget just how amazing and special the people in my life are that stood with me through that ridiculously difficult time when my own (ex)spouse couldn’t be bothered to lend a helping hand – or even live in a neighboring time zone…

Sometimes I wonder where my opportunities are to succeed.  And I wonder who will love me and stand by me into my future years.  And then I see someone online rejoicing that he or she is cancer free – for one year – two years – one month…

And then I remember.  I woke up today.  And the day before that.  And the day before that. 

2006 and 2014 - respectively.  I went bald before Brittney! But s'rsly - check out the luscious locks ;) 


I whine sometimes.  My foot hurts after I’m on it for ‘too long.’  Not too shabby when the doctors told me I might never walk again.  I get a migraine and beat myself up because I didn’t get all the things done that I’d planned on that day.  Not bad – considering that for nearly two years, I couldn’t complete a simple household task without getting dizzy and winded.

So thank you Steve, for reminding me that I’m celebrating today as well.  And congratulations to you and to everyone else who woke up today after fighting the good fight.  I hope you forget too.  I hope you complain about stupid trivial things that you’re currently vowing you’ll never take for granted again.  And then, every so often, I hope you’ll remember :)